Somewhere in the middle of the night a brownie or borrower or some other tiny creature crawled inside my skull with an ice axe and has been banging away between my eyes. I got up at 5 am took the Excedrin and then sat up until it my chin hit my chest and woke me up, then i crawled back under the covers until the pain came back. Besides that i had a nightmare about spending money on things i shouldn’t. No doubt because yesterday was the ERRAND day, cat food, cat litter, cleaning supplies, gasoline..so essentially i was broke at the end of the day and STILL had bills to pay that are unavoidable…and thus the nightmare.
Today was a total turn around, i had a couple of larger sales come in and the funds went out almost immediately, i paid the comcast account and the cellphone…I still have to pay the car insurance but i have until next week. And the larger sales are for products that i have to reorder, so that money is already on its way out the door.
Meanwhile i have 7 orders to ship, 3 are already boxed and the damn printer cartridge has given up the ghost…this time a lot sooner than normal. The Cartridge refill place has raised the price to $44 dollars for the toner for the ancient HP5L …..so I have talked myself into buying a new printer NOW instead of waiting until I move…..
I was also trying to put some money aside to go to the Book Fairs in Boston this weekend… so right now it’s either buy a printer and ship the orders or save the money and go to the book fair. I am leaning towards the fuck-it side of that argument.
The universe practically gave me a black cat every day this week….too bad the kittens are about 16 weeks, they are too old to socialize well for adoption, one of them is just a bitch….all i can do is fix them and put them all back next week hopefully before it snows. One or two of the kittens COULD be hand tamed to live in a house or a barn, but at this age they will almost never be your typical housecat; they will always been too fearful… it’s not like it is impossible, but the socialization takes ages and it has to be one on one. overwhelmed fosters like me who have several to contend with just can’t get the job done. The three who ARE going to live elsewhere when i move are JUST like these… social enough to grab for vaccinations but completely indifferent to me the rest of the year. Besides i still have the two who are being adopted out…and as yet they really only like me when i am opening cans of baby food.
Honestly cat food and cleaning supplies are my largest expense….a few more mouths to feed now and then doesn’t even registered as a blip. Caged cats however do use more litter than free range, because i have to change the entire pan twice a day…whereas i can just scoop the others. I will get a few bucks on Monday when i do the clinic, its primarily for gas as I am SUPPOSED to be volunteering but i use it for whatever my roommates need. I will drag all these guys to Mondays clinic and then put them back on Wed or Thursday.
One of the voices feels quite guilty about NOT being here to accept deliveries of cats that would just have miserable lives if no one intervened…but then the other voice is doing a backflip, since once I move, I won’t have the constant struggle trying to keep my living room cage free. I am sure there are cats in Greenfield that will need rescuing…i am just praying that no one gives them my address!